Trust Him anyway!
Amy and I just found out that our son whom she is carrying has a disease that is not compatible with life. It is called anencephaly. It is a neural tube defect that will not allow our son to see very much of this life if any at all. We went in for the normal ultrasound to see what we were having and saw the heartbeat and feet and hands. When the ultrasound tech. finished, she said that the doctor wanted to speak with us. Amy knew something wasn’t right. I just said, “We saw the heartbeat right? Anything else we can deal with.” Little did I know how little I know. The doctor came in and explained the situation and we were devastated. This can’t be right! But it was right – it was right in God’s perfect plan.
We are puzzled as to why this happens and why God allows things such as this to happen. However, we still believe in God and we still believe God is better than good. Do we want this to happen? We would rather not. We are confident, though, that God has all of this figured out and although we can’t understand, don’t see His plan, can’t trace His hand – we trust Him! This is not, believe me, because we are “super-spiritual” – it is because there is no other logical thing to do. We hope that as a result of this journey that we will become closer to our God. We know because it has already happened that God wants to take something of this nature and glorify Himself. He wants to use this to bring people into a relationship with Him, draw those who are in a relationship with Him closer to Him, and give us a story to tell of His grace, goodness, and ever surrounding love.
We covet your prayers. Please let us know if you have been able to tell someone about our loving God as a result of communicating this story. We are keeping a journal that will help us to see what good can come out of this unfortunate circumstance. You can send me an email at email@example.com to let me know.
Until next time!